I write to you today with joy and sadness. Today our new website is up and running. I started this project in the summer of 2017…three years ago. I have no computer science or digital art education. No tech savvy per se. So for all of these 3 years I have coveted beautiful sites and questioned if I could launch something so important from such a novice place of understanding. Looking back now I feel sad that I doubted, scolded, and criticized the process- it was painful. Now sitting here today practicing self-study (svadhyaya) I am learning so much about myself and the life I want to lead. The process taught me so much about my co-creativity with the Divine. This for me is how yoga works off the mat. Clinging to an idea purely constructed in my head that was unattainable kept me from experiencing life, joy, freedom…like I was locked in a dark sealed room with no doors or windows. It was like the goal of offering something perfect completely limited me from offering anything. And of course in my experience reaching for perfection is about being afraid of any myriad of things…most of which do not have an ounce of truth in them.
Today I am so excited about the new website! I feel a freedom and joy inside my heart that I did not anticipate from the launch of this project. I am learning the more I follow the guidance and flutterings of my heart, the more life comes alive. I had a coach ask me early in this pandemic, what would happen if you followed those quiet deep whispers on a daily basis? And while I thought following them would lead me down a wreckless road, the path has never felt more steady. What?? (Thank you Amy). I am learning SO much from this 3 year trek I have taken with this site that has drawn me into a journey discovering more of my own self & Self. Today I am very aware of my appreciation for the journey.
The site is and will continue to be a work in progress…as all of life is. Crazy how situations mirror the inner process. I can’t wait to see how this all unfolds and informs my experience.
Is there anything holding you back from your creative desires? How is your life supporting the blooming of your unique being? Leave comments below. I’d love to hear from you!